I was asked what the greatest thing I’ve accomplished is; I wasn’t sure. I’m an intelligent honors student active in my school. So why do I leave my paper blank? 

My mind wandered to elementary school where I was testing after school in corporate buildings, back when I was receiving program scholarships at the ripe age of 9-10, surely I’d make something great of myself. My last trimester grade in algebra 2a was a d. 

I could repeat the class but then I would no longer be ahead, in 4th grade, I would no longer have something greater than average. Have I wasted all my excellence in my first years? Perhaps I don’t know myself, or perhaps nothing I present you with feels sufficient. 

Why is it that I cannot tell you what my greatest accomplishment is? Has my one failure over-consumed my ability to believe that I have ever excelled? Why did I allow my d in algebra 2 to disregard my a in ap bio or any other class?

 I am no longer in 4th grade, I no longer excel in all that I do. If there’s one thing you learn about me, it is that I am average. Not great, not horrible, simply average; I leave my paper blank.